Engagement Story

Five years ago today my husband asked me to marry him. Saying yes was the best decision I ever made! I love my husband and all the memories that we have made together. We have been through so much already together but I am so excited to see where our future takes us :)

The day before our Engagement we were planning to go on a date. I remember like it was yesterday. I was getting ready for the day while texting Zachary. He didn't seem himself that day and I was asking if he was ok? In response I got a text stating that he thought we should break up. My heart shattered in a million pieces. I loved him! At this point we were together almost a year and a half. I had plans for our future, I thought he was the one. I called him as fast as I could. He answered and stated the same thing in tears that he thought we should break up. I didn't understand. I told him I was coming over to talk things through. 

I gathered everything he had ever given me (I was a little dramatic). I stuffed all his things in big black garbage bags and headed over to his house. When I arrived I drug everything to the front door (see I was crazy). I rang the door bell and his sister answered. I gave her the bags and asked if I could talk to Zach. She stated he didn't want to see me. I walked away and got in my car in tears. I tried to pull myself together.

Once I had a little control I went back to the door and stated I was going to talk to Zach. I went upstairs to his room, walked in and sat down on the edge of his bed. We were facing each other and he had his head down. All I could manage to ask at this point was why? Do you not love me?

In response I got the answer I was not expecting. "I haven't loved you for a long time, I don't know why I was staying with you." If that doesn't sting someones heart then I don't know what else will. There was a lot of crying and me trying to make him talk. I even remember slapping his face and walking out of his room (dramatic I know). I went downstairs and he followed. He walked me out to my car and told me to drive safe home. I was so mad and heart broken. I didn't know what I did wrong to make him do this to me. 

When I arrived him my sister Melissa and brother Dallin decided we should go out for the day and try to get my mind off of things. They are the best brother and sister I could ever ask for, but nothing can get your mind off of a horrible heartbreak. We drove up around Draper and looked at the giant houses. We spent hours looking at the houses and saying which ones we liked. Zachary and I sent a couple of texts back and forth. I didn't want to text him but he was wanting to make sure I was ok. He would ask what I was doing and I would tell him. 

A few hours later it was the same thing, he would ask and I would tell him. After we drove around Draper which didn't help looking at houses because I wanted a future with Zach. We headed over to Chinese Gourmet to eat. I was not in the mood to eat either. My brother and sister were trying so hard to cheer me up. I did enjoy that they took that effort and I know I smiled a few times that day but nothing was what I wanted. I wanted that date Zachary and I had planned on for today.

The next day was Sunday May 25, 2008. Zachary texted me that morning and told me he wanted to meet me at temple square in front of the fountain by the Conference Center. I wanted to say no but yet I knew I needed more closure and was curious to what he would say. I told him I would meet him after our church meetings around 5pm. We went about our days and I never really heard from him. Everyone was saying how sorry they were about hearing Zach and I break up (doing this does not help anyone feel better). I didn't know that all day Zach was texting my brother. They were forming a secret plan that I had no idea about (hence the secret plan haha).

Five was finally rolling around and I was getting anxious. My stomach was turning so badly. I wanted him to just take me back so we could have our future together but yet I was so hesitant to because what if he did this to me again. My heart was broken and I don't think I could handle much more. My brother and I headed down to temple square. We parked underneath the conference center building and started walking up towards the fountain. I turned the corner towards the fountain and I saw him sitting on a ledge looking so sad. I wanted to run to him and tell him I love him and to just tell him to get back together with me already but I remembered yesterday how he told me he didn't love me.

When I finally meet him face to face in front of the fountain I could see the pain and sadness in his eyes. The next thing I know Zach gave me a big hug. He was saying how sorry he was for what he said. He told me that it wasn't true,  he really did love me. He explained how his bishop had pressured him so much to break up with me that he finally did it. He realized an hour after I left how stupid he was to let such a perfect girl go.

I guess he went out that day and found a ring for me. He made this plan to meet me at Temple Square to try to win me back. This whole time I was being so dramatic and texting other guys. I had a few dates set up already. We texted back and forth as I had stated above a few times but it wasn't like our usual constant messaging.

 I told him that I was really hurt by what he did and I would need time. We hugged for a long time, I am sure my brother got bored.

After that Zach said I have something for you. The next thing I know Zach pulled a ring out of his pocket. He said Laurel will you wait for me while I serve my mission so I can marry you on my return. It was so cute. I cried more! I finally whispered in his ear yes but only if he never pulled this stunt ever again haha.

The saddest heartbreak turned into an engagement. Our story is like no other engagement story but we love it that way. We are an original couple. We are different from others. We are so strong! We have been through so much together. I love my husband! Saying yes was the best decision I made back in 2008. I love the life I have with Zachary just like I knew I would way back at 17, in reality its even better then I expected :)

Taylor Lynn Slideshow

I made a slideshow for my niece Taylor. She is our beautiful guardian angel. I am so grateful to be able to be her Aunt on this earth and the next. Taylor had such a sweet spirit and is truly missed by all her knew her.

Zach's Birthday Part 4

Zachary's last birthday celebration for his 24th was a family party. Andie and I got everything ready for him so when he got home from work we could enjoy our time together celebrating our man. We went with a France theme. We had a little bit of decorations and a few presents. The main idea for his 24th birthday was the fact I bought him tickets to see Les Miserable on June 1st.

We enjoyed dinner with French bread pizza, grapes, eclairs, salad and sparkling cider. French bread pizza is one of our favorite recipes in the Wadsworth home. Andie is crazy about pizza. Andie really loved the eclairs too. She ate so many!

We then had Zach open his presents. He got the tickets for June, Les Miserable Blue ray, Wreck it Ralph DVD - which Andie wanted to take from Dad all night, and snickers.

We then moved our mattress in the living room and we relaxed as a family to watch Les Miserable. We even decided to extend the party and sleep in the living room on our mattress as a family too! After the movie we had some yummy cake. I wanted to make one from scratch but I ran out of time and got a delicious chocolate cake with whipped icing, this cake is delicious.

I love you Zach and am so happy I am able to be apart of your life. I love being your wife and spending every day with you. I hope your 24th birthday was fantastic. Love Laurel and your little girl Andie.

Zach's Birthday Part 3

My parents are so sweet. They let us celebrate Zachary's birthday last night, and today they still made him a cake. We headed over to my parents place around dinner time. We were able to talk of memories of our sweet Taylor. We shared photos and watched videos of her.

We are so blessed to be able to have her apart of our lives. My grandparents came over around 7 and we had cake. My grandmas birthday is this week too so we have things to celebrate for sure. My grandma and Zach are two very important people in my life. The cake was delicious. Thanks Mom and Dad for celebrating my husband with me :)

Zach's Birthday Part 2

Due to recent events in our family the perfect weekend I wanted for Zach didn't go as planned. I took the effort to try to make Zachs birthday special even if he was the one taking care of me. Saturday night my parents took Andie and told us to clear our heads and go celebrate. It was hard but by the end of the night I was so glad I had those hours to not think of everything going on and just focus on having fun!

We went out with Melissa and Brent to Wingers for dinner. I had there delicious sticky finger salad, it's my favorite. Zachary got the sticky finger dinner. We left completely full!
We all headed over to Fat Cats and did some bowling. I am not a good bowler at all. We played two full games. Zach beat me in the first but he was kind and let me win in the second game :) That right there is a special birthday boy!

 We then had more time to burn so we headed over to the theaters. We watched Star Trek. I haven't watched any of the movies before even if we own one in our movie collection. Zach explained a few things to me through out the movie but over all I thought it was pretty good. I love the action packed movies and this one has that. Zachary enjoyed his night of fame and just forgetting our sadness for just a few hours.

Taylor Lynn Landrum

Dear Taylor, 

             I remember the day your mom found out she was pregnant. She called me with such excitement stating proudly that she was expecting. February would be such a great month, I would be able to meet such a special spirit. At 20 weeks pregnant I got another call from your mother. She was so worried about your health. They found out you had heart problems. Nothing could be done at this time for your health besides the growth your mom could assist you with. The day you were born was such an exciting day. All your aunts, uncles, cousins, grandparents, your parents and older brother were so anxious to see you. You arrived into the world February 21st 2012.

I was so excited to go up to the hospital and hold you for the first time. When I arrived at the hospital I wasn't expecting you to be in the NICU. Your mom and dad were so strong. They stayed by your side every day for as long as they could. You were so perfect and I knew right away you were such a special spirit. You brought so much love to my heart and all who saw you! Ever since that first phone call showing that positive test, I have loved you. I will continue to love you for all of eternity. We made some great memories together. I took you to Walmart one day with your cousin Andie. Everyone thought you two were twins. I didn't want to explain you were just cousins so I agreed to every comment. You and Andie were about the same size at the time.

You and Andie had such a special relationship, it reminded me of your mothers and mine. The last time I babysat you at my home, I built a gate out of chairs so you wouldn't get in the kitchen. Andie and you would babble to each other I am assuming making a plan on how to get through the gate. You two tried everything from getting on top of each other to both pushing on one chair at the same time.

You girls loved each other and will continue to be friends in the next life. Andie wasn't always so nice to you. She pulled on your tubes and took your headbands off. She tried to be so helpful by getting those things off of you. She loved you and will continue to love you!

I remember the day you were blessed. You were so proud to be in a little white dress. You knew you were pretty! Your smile shown through throughout your whole life. You smiled through your pain and loved all who came in contact with you. Your spirit shown throughout your whole body. You are strong, we love you.

I didn't get much one on one time with you and it will always be my deepest regret. As life continues, you have taught me a very important lesson. I have always known family is important and that items mean nothing. I would give up everything I have to spend one more day with you. I will cherish every moment with my family, and all the extended family. Life is short and has no time for regrets. Thank you for teaching me such a valuable lesson. You are our angel. I couldn't ask for a more beautiful guardian angel to watch over my sister, your mom. Your smile and the way you lived life to the fullest is something I will strive to be more like. Thank you for the opportunity I have to be your Aunt. I am a better person because of knowing you! I love you Taylor Lynn! 

                                            Love, Aunt Laurel.

Zach's Birthday Part 1

Zachary is turning 24 this year :) We have many celebrations in store for him, he always has so many parties! We started off the birthday weekend early. Wednesday night we went to Red Robin with Zachs Mom, Step Dad and Nanny goat. We had so much fun hanging out with a wild loud bunch and Andie especially enjoyed the attention and cake! I can't wait for more birthday celebrations to celebrate my wonderful husbands life. I love you Zachary Wadsworth!

Mothers Day

It was my first Mothers Day this year and I loved every minute of that day. I couldn't of asked for a better first Mothers Day. I started out the day with Andie handing me a card while I was waking up. 

She was so proud and took all the credit of giving me that card. That proud smile on her face was so cute!

When I look into Andies eyes I really do see a little spirit who loves her mother so much. She loves me more then words are able to describe. I love having the privilege of being her mother. I love that Andie choose me to be her mom here on the earth. Andie is so perfect and teaches me every day how to live better!

We then had chinese food for lunch and ate with the coolest soup spoons ever. I want to buy some of these babies for my house :)

After lunch we headed over to my parents house for my brother Dallins last call home before returning home. I can't believe November is just around the corner. Its been 2 years since I have seen my little brother. I love that brother of mine! We have had some fun times together.

Dallin is one of my best friends and I can't wait to give him a giant hug in the airport come the end of the year. Dallin sounded so good on the phone and is enjoying every minute out serving the Lord. I am so proud of his dedication these past two years, he has definantly made his family proud!

After talking to Dallin we headed back home. We relaxed on the couch and Zachary gave me a present. I told him not to spend money on me because of our Disneyland trip coming up but he always is so sweet and had to get something. He handed me a Yoga mat. I know not many people would be happy with that but I have been wanting one. I got the best one there is haha who wouldn't love a hot pink yoga mat :)

I love my husband and all he does for me. He is so perfect for me and Andie. I love my little family that I have started and am so happy to be able to be there wife and mother. I love Andie and Zachary and will always be blessed because of them in my life!

Park Picnic

Its getting warm in Utah. 

I would much rather it be cold. 

My power bill rockets in the summer. 

I love my A/C. 

The warm air does bring good things. 

Amusement Parks. Walks. Flip Flops. Picnics.

These are just a few of the fun things to do when it is warm.

We went on a picnic as a family. My little brothers Nathan and Tyson joined us and last minute I was asked to babysit Nicholas. We all headed out to Draper park. 

Andie really enjoyed crawling around in the grass once she got used to the feeling of it. She also loved being in a swing for the first time while playing at the park, she couldn't wipe that smile off her face even if she wanted too. 

All the boys loved running up and down the hills and then walking through all the huge houses. If you are ever bored on a Saturday go drive around Draper there is a billion open houses going on. 

We had fun! I can't wait for next weekend to go on more adventures in the sun :)